whatever we felt was left in the past being real but not existing weighing down but not existing slicing my heart but not existing pulsating with life but not existing you don’t exist you aren’t real yet you love me still like when you were yet I love you still like when you were yet… Continue reading untitled
Tag: Hurt
Late nights
Aren’t repressed feelings kinda funny? Funny in that heart wrenching way that makes you laugh at how painfully ironic life is. Ah my dear feelings, the ones I spent years trying to acknowledge so I wouldn’t fall prey to the symptoms of your mind trying to protect you. They always come back to explode in… Continue reading Late nights
Frozen memories
It’s funny how pictures work isn’t it? You freeze a moment in time, with all it brought you. The feelings, they all stay there, in that moment. And then you start to forget. All of it. It starts to slip your mind, slowly. One day you wake up and you don’t even realize you’ve long… Continue reading Frozen memories
Stormy horizon
there was once a time when you offered your soul once upon a time you gave me your all and it was beautiful it was gorgeous and true like the silence before the storm I was strong and confident and I abandoned my norm you better believe I gave it my all but the storm… Continue reading Stormy horizon
A knife
rip it out rip it out the death in me that’s what it’s about make it stop there’s nothing more to give, to hold no one to adore only one way I see out of the horror in me so I shall take it and run don’t look back, flee
Murdered
we took what we needed learned how to fear now we know how to lose for us, everything dear the longest journey a slower death you killed me in pieces you stole my breath it felt like my duty to hurt, to pain for a stupid mistake to always restrain a soul was murdered the… Continue reading Murdered
Riding love
A hell of a ride That’s what it is Heaven on earth Does nothing but amaze Crazy How long you’re fooled No more, no less By God, overruled Thrown into hell how can it be? Heal, just heal For you, for me
Trampled
It’s like a roller coaster isn’t it? It’s fine one day. Everything seems, good. Nothing to be afraid of. And then, suddenly, it isn’t. From out of nowhere, it tramples you down like a hundred thousand people running towards happiness. And you’re left there, laying on the ground, everything broken. And it seems for a… Continue reading Trampled
Trying is enough
So, I wanted to tell you a little about the last couple of weeks and why I haven't been posting my usual three to four posts a day. First of all, I've been moving a lot. My suitcase hasn't had much of a break. I guess this was kind of a taste of how living… Continue reading Trying is enough
Abrazo
your arms around me holding me, taking me keeping me safe keeping me loved you kissed my forehead the way I always loved if only, if only I hadn't woken up
frío
we went through it, ignoring all the signs, all the warnings we plowed through, with no consideration and now we're left, inconsolable it hit us deep, it hit us hard like strapped to the track waiting for a merciless machine the one we loved riding to tear us deep, to tear us, apart
Turning tables
they won't stop spinning they laugh at our expense they see us, never waiting and they make us regret you're always told it will happen you're always told don't forget that the tables always turn always spinning, always regret
Joke
my life is a joke, and I'll tell you why we want to, but we can't and when we spend time we start to think we can that is until something happens an annoyance, the pressure and we know, for sure no matter how strong our love is right now, all we can do is… Continue reading Joke
Winter
being with you is like winter the loud sun making soft noise the waves, they go back but always come forth the silent sound all around you it's peaceful and safe winter i love, winter i want but you can't choose when it comes you can just wait, and wait for one day, you'll live… Continue reading Winter
A forever battle
my heart fills with joy at the sight of us together just as my mind fills with worry at the thought of us parting an endless war between brain and soul an endless battle where no victor is crowned
How?
how can I feel happy? when you're crying next to me how can we be okay? when our hearts are aching
words, lost
what can I say? i lost my words my will to stay the things we did the path we came to became too hard to handle too tough to be left
Tried
Have you ever tried to breathe, when everything is falling apart? You forget. Have you ever tried to think, when all your thoughts are screaming? You can't. Have you ever tried to move on, when all you want to do is go back? You fail. Life is tough, it shows no mercy, when it's time… Continue reading Tried
Haze
I don't know, i can't what to think, what to say everything is so hazy so sad, these days I'm being told one thing i hear another and I won't listen not again, I'm smothered i don't know what to do where to go what to scream i don't, know
My search, pt. 1
The gold rays of sunshine were not able to find everything, you could see them scrambling to fill every nook around, never being able to. You could hear the cicadas buzzing all around you. Like a symphony that announced the darkness of the night was soon to come. The colors that were painted in the… Continue reading My search, pt. 1
Think, think
they become muddy they can't seem to just be they refuse to stay still it's hard to think when your thoughts don't want to be why do we always, always need to be thinking?
Contradiction
it feels empty and yet, full with pain it stops beating and yet, it can never stop i can't cry nor can i stop crying i can't feel nor can i stop feeling so how do I make it stop if it hasn't begun? and how can I have it when i can't make it… Continue reading Contradiction
loneliness
loneliness never calls it never rings it never asks in only arrives loneliness is never coming you can't know until she's your friend until she's gone as quickly as it comes as quickly it goes and just as sudden someday she'll be back for you, and you alone
Llamado
the lights are blinding the laughter is deafening I can feel my heart pounding while everyone is dancing I try to empty my mind to match my empty soul and I try so hard, so hard but then, I hear you call when you're calling, I must simply go and as i near you, my… Continue reading Llamado
20/11/2020
Today was the first day that I was too busy to post anything. Which I hardly think is a bad thing, considering everything. I recently had to make the hardest choice of my life, putting my mental health before the person I love the most in the world. As most of you can tell just… Continue reading 20/11/2020
Para ti
I know you think you lost me you feel me slipping away but how can you feel something that's not real? because what you make me feel is stronger than a hurricane is taller than the sky is deeper than any ocean and feeling it makes me cry my happy tears turned to sad my… Continue reading Para ti
Run
sometimes all you want to do is run run away to some far place where are people are nice and nobody knows you where you don't have to be you and your story can be whatever you want it to be so you can run away from yourself
Who you are
try to remember who you are try to remember where you come from try to look up at the sky and see the future before you you were once stronger you could move mountains you were once wiser you could see further try to be who you once were and more
Weakness
to love the sea but not know how to swim to love the sky but be afraid of falling it hurts to have to walk away with pain in your soul to leave your dreams because you don't have what it takes it hurts I wonder what's worse the pain from leaving or the pain… Continue reading Weakness
Struck
it hits like a train going at full speed it comes out of nowhere you can't see it coming and just like that, you're left there laying in the ground, badly hurt you can't move, you can't breathe in a slow pain you try to stand up you start to breathe again you never know… Continue reading Struck
Decision
I couldn't bare it. I wasn't strong enough. I wish I was. I couldn't stand the idea of waiting until we grew sick of each other. I couldn't do that to us. I owed it to us. The us that loved each other like our life depended on it. The us that laughed all the… Continue reading Decision
Under water
it's like drowning with sorrow oh, such a heavy sorrow the saltiness of the tears feels like water is invading you the knots in your throat you can't breath anymore the pressure in your chest such as tons of water crushing you in the dark
Darkness
everything is dark, except for a small light inside me i can feel the long fingers of darkness revolving around the light lurking, waiting, for a chance to invade it's becoming exhausting, trying to feed the light, trying to make it stronger I'm tired will darkness win?
Alma
do you believe we have souls? do you think soul mates exist? I never know what to think we should believe in what we feelmost times I don't even know what I feel I need to learn to know but there's one feeling i know I haveI'm sure if soul mates existYou are mine
Us & I
oh, how it hurts the thought of breaking how it hurts to think about an "us" being lost and an "I" being found why can't we have both? i want to want both is it too late? to be "I"s inside of "us" ?
Back to myself 